Well, I haven't updated in awhile, the only other blog I have is Tumblr and it's basically the one I go on, other than this. Which is once in awhile. But I figured I'd update a bit.
Tomorrow I'm leaving for FLORIDAAA! I'm excited. I can't believe it's finally here. Time goes by so, so fast. It's incredible. Sometimes I really dislike it. But I guess it's okay, since I'll probably enjoy myself a lot, being out there.

This trip is also a perfect opportunity for photography. I'm gonna be taking so many photographs. I just don't know if I'll be able to update and upload them at all though. I will, however, be sending tons of pictures from my (shitty quality) camera phone, and updating a lot from there.

So make sure you're following me on my twitter account, which I'm sure you already know, if you're reading this blog even.
And follow me on emliebes.tumblr.com.

I'll be getting back from Florida on the 22nd. I'm gonna be missing my vvvittle Belle so, so much! It's gonna be so horrible being away from her so long! I've never been away from her that long. :( I'll be so upset. So, that's the only part I'm not excited about.

P.S.
I lovelovelovelove when the plane takes off. It's my favorite. If it's aloud, I'm taking tons of pictures of the plane, and outside the windows. As secretly as possible though. :)

Happy New Year!

Wow, can't believe it's actually 2010 - already. So crazy. You think time will hold off, and things will be frozen, but time just goes and goes. Right past your eyes and sometimes you don't even get a chance to look. Ah. Well. I guess that's how I feel anyways..

I think New Years Eve is so overrated. Haha, I was doing some drunken ranting talking about it. But it really is. People feel it's absolutely necessary to get wasted and party on the night of it. It really isn't necessary, at all. Yaaa need to get over it. I am. haha. I was extremely content, just chilling, drinking some Smirnoff. I hardly ever drink. So you can only imagine how easily I get drunk or buzzed. It was quite funny. I was on my last one, and had a little episode of sickness. I had to lye down, I did that for like 20 minutes probably. And was convinced I would be throwing up. So I stumbled out to get 'THE bucket', I started rubbing my stomach. But that wasn't working. So then I started thinking about some stuff, and that took my mind off of the nauseousness. Then I got up and was all better. Haha, next time I need to eat. I didn't eat the entire day so I'm guessing that's all it was..
That's basically all I really did. Oh, I was even feeling so buzzed, drunk, whatever you wanna call it - that I almost made some plans with friends from the passsst. Almost. We had some good conversations going on too. But I just wasn't up to it. aha. Guess isolation will do that to ya. Kidding. Well, actually no I'm not. But, also it's more complex than that. Haven't even seen them in two years.. and we've both changed drastically. So. Yeah.
Oh. My mom and step dad finally got back from dinner, and she knew I was drinking, so I was talking to her and asked her to come lye down with me. Then we watched the movie 'The Blind Side'. It was really good, we both really liked it. I was expecting it to be more dramatic though, you know, something like an instant classic. But no, it was still really good. Based on a true story too :) That's what made me even happier, in the ending.

So, that was my new years eve. Well, there's a lot of other things unmentioned, but that's completely unnecessary and not worth typing it all.

Haha Michael Cera is so cute and hilarious. looove him. His little promotion commercial for his new movie 'Youth in Revolt' or whatever, is funny (on Adult Swim).
Random.


Oh, I have some New Years resolutions but, I feel this post is already too long. And I have to go change the channel, the show on the television is so fucking obnoxious right now!!! AH

Follllllllllllow Kaelah :)

So, just wanna let you all know, you need to follow this girl immediately. She's a fashion genius, and absolutely great :)

Counting down :)

Wow, I can't believe Christmas is only SIX days away!!! Where the hell does the time go?? I have no idea. It seems like it was just summer, time is going too quickly. I remember when I was a kid I used to get so excited for Christmas, the month always seemed too long, I'd have Christmas countdowns, take naps by the Christmas tree, and peek at the wrapped presents. haha. But now. I feel like I'm not excited. And that's not good. Because, I made a promise to myself that I wouldn't act like my parents.. that I would still get excited on holidays and birthdays. But now, I feel like I'm turning into them. That IS NOT GOOD!

Anyways, I got a new camera last night!!! Finaaallllllly! Half was my money that I had left over, and half was Christmas money from my mom and step dad.. It's a:

Canon EOS Digital Rebel XS

Whoa. Sorry the font came out like that. Lmao. I had copied & pasted it. So whatever. But yeah, it's pretty amazing. People are trying to say Nikon's are better and Canon's are only known for their name, and that's why people buy them. But I completely disagree with that. I definitely recommend this camera. It's perfect quality. It's just what I needed and what I've been looking for. I am so incredibly happy! I can now finally enjoy taking photographs and share them without feeling ashamed :)

Veganism.

Alright. Sorry I haven't posted in awhile. I'm half way out of my depression fog. But at least I'm making progress. Right?

It snowed for the first time on the 5th. Snow is still outside. It's so beautiful.. I painted my nails Christmas colors, I do it every year. But I'm kinda pissed 'cause they're already starting to get messed up. They're dry and all. But you know how like 2 hours later if you bump or nail into something it'll leave a massive gash and make it gushy? Yeah..

Annnnyways.
I've become vegan. For so many different reasons. And I'm sticking to it too. I became a vegetarian at the end of January in 2007. My intentions, at first, were to become vegan. But I couldn't manage that. Sooo now, almost two years later, I've finally become one. I feel like it's been 3 years? Like I'm miscounting by one year. But I don't know. Not thinking clearly.

I think I started the 3rd of this month. Just wanna document this so I remember the exact date this time. aha. And I'm doing really good. I know I wont end up going back to eating dairy products or using any products associated with the cruel usage of animals.. My mind is set.
Obviously Peta is what opened my eyes to everything. I've known about Peta for a long time now. But never did I actually comprehend the cruel things going on with animals, other than them being slaughtered for someone's stomach to be filled temporarily. Anyways, I was reading a Peta2 vegan recipe booklet and I was reading all these sad, sad, sad, cruel stories about these innocent animals. And I must have been extra emotional, because while I was reading it I was hysterically crying - for an hour. haha. But honestly. This world is just so fucked up. I'm sure you're very aware of that.

It's sad not many people know about the violent, cruel things going on in this world.. not even my family knows, nor will they listen when I try to explain it to them. They're completely stubborn and want to believe what they want to believe in their cannibal minds. :|

If I do have a future. I already know I want to rescue as many animals as possible. Farm animals included. Any animal that needs a home. That's something I really, really want to do in life. I know I wont be able to do that for a very long time. But I want to give my life meaning, and be able to save lives and give animals comfort and happiness. I've always been an animal lover. aha
I'm so corny. But I'm being completely honest right now.

And if I have a family of my own. I'm totally raising vegan children. It's absolutely safe for infants to be vegan and grow up still being vegan. I've done plenty of research. It's actually a lot healthier for babies to grow up that way, a lot healthier than giving your child a pile of fatty, toxic meat and a cup full of toxic, milk pus. Seriously... And the things people do to acheive that glass of milk, and that slice of cheese on your sandwich. It's the most fucking disturbing thing. In many, many ways.

I just wish, that people could take the time out of their 'oh so' busy day, and actually look into this. Look into what you're putting into your system, into your child's system. I am just beyond terrified and disgusted about it all. And that I didn't know about it sooner.

I hope that someone actually reads this all. And what I hope the most is that you learn more about this and one day hopefully you decide to live healthy and cruelty free.

That's all.. :)

Happy Birthday Belle!

Yayy. Today is my kittie's birthday! I'm so happy. Well, not really technically her actual "birthday" but I've had her for a year officially. I can't believe it. It feels like I've had her my whole life. I love her so much.
I know most of you probably think I'm crazy, weird or obsessed with her. But seriously, she is my baby! Her and I have such a mother and daughter bond. It's as if I actually had a baby. Haha. I love her that much. She's my everything.
I was so miserable before, and just looking at my little kitty brightens my entire day up. She's what puts me in a good mood when I'm mad at the world or myself. I love her so much!
I wish I knew how old she actually was. But I don't :/ All I know is, in March of '08 is when she got brought to the shelter. And "She was really young when she had her own kittens". No, I've never even seen her kittens before, or know where they are now. But I'm really upset she's not reunited with them. How horrible to be giving birth to kittens then never seeing them again? That's how most cats in the world work. But I just can't stand to see related animals separated from each other. Saddest thing ever I think. Anyways, she was in the shelter for 8 long months.
Until I decided to adopt her. I had gone to the shelter a few times (still do) and had seen her a lot, but I didn't actually notice her or take an interest to her until November of '08. I was playing with all the cats, and for some reason I just had my eyes on her. She was such a loving little kitty. She was rubbing against me, and the second she crawled into my lap, curled up into a ball and slept there was when she stole my heart.
Hahahhaha. I know. I sound pathetic. But it was the SWEETEST thing ever!! And I had explained to my mom how much I really loved this cat and how I wanted to rescue her and take her home.
Of course, us, we as it is have way too many animals, even more now. So my mom was saying no and we knew my step dad would say no too, like he always does to 'new animals'. So like a week or two went by.
And we went back and visited. Then I think about 2 days later, I called my mom while she was visiting at the shelter ('Cause she's good friends with the owner and volunteers there sometimes) and she sounded like she was up to something.
She had been talking to my step dad over the phone, talking him into it, convincing him to let her get Belle for me. But I didn't know that at the time. aha.
So, finally as she was pulling into the driveway. I for some reason was in the laundry room waiting to greet her. (aha idk whyyyy.)
I saw her walk over to the passenger side of the car and then I saw her take a cat carrier out of the car. And I started screaming and getting all excited. I ran out there and I was the happiest person in the world.
That was the best surprise I've ever had in my life. I never knew she was going to do that. And even then, she told me not to get my hopes up. Because we didn't know how Belle was going to get along with the other animals or anything. We didn't know her personality, or if she was sick or had any kinds of diseases.


Okay, pause.. might I add that this is a really fucking long story? Haha. I'm not even going to want to proof read it. Ahhhh! But why stop now? I'll continue. Please keep reading, if you are even this far...

So the first night, I was a little nervous. As I was sleeping, everytime I woke up to turn over Belle would be right by my side, she would meow and be all lovey dovey, rubbing against me. It was because she obviously wasn't used to being with someone at nights or with someone who babied or loved her.. so it took her some time to get used to. She kept me up the bit of the night.
But it's alright. 'Cause we all know I would do anything for her..
Oh dearrrrr, this is too long. Well, long story short. We brought her to the vets. And she had a little cold, but it eventually passed and she also had worms in her poop. That also passed.



So yep. It's been a year now. And I am the happiest ever because of her. I cannot say it enough, how animals in shelters are actually the most amazing pets. You might not think so. But they really are. All animals are. Except, you don't need to be supporting puppy mills or mall animals shops, it's completely absurd. It's not natural and what those poor animals go through is HELL. Don't support them. These people breeding animals need to learn a lesson. Anyways, my sister used to work at a mall pet store, and they treated the animals so awful. The animals (mainly dogs) would die because they needed medications, because they were sick. And I remember my sister really loved this one dog and wanted it so bad, but of course, it was too expensive. And it eventually ended up dying due to not getting the medications it needed to survive. Because the poor thing was sick. So fucked up.

Anywho, I'm just rambling now. I hope you enjoyed it, ahha. I honestly felt the need to share it, but who's going to actually read this? Way too long. I know.

I love my precious little baby though. I couldn't have ever asked for a better kitty. Honest to God. Loooove love love my sweet pea <3

R.I.P. laptop.

So, my laptop is finally dead. REEEEEST IN PEACE. I'm very, very mad about it. It had a crack in the hinge, and ever since it's slowly gottin worse. I don't even know how that crack got there, but it did. And I took really good care of it, hoping to prevent further damage. But, nope. It just deteriorated right before my very own eyes. I can't even shut it or anything, that's how fucked up it is. And to get it fixed, Best Buy said they'd have to replace the entire screen, and that it would cost around $300 to $400 dollars. Screw that.
I'm better off buying a brand new computer. And the thing about having a computer, it's gonna suck. It's super nice and all. (I don't even have the money for this.) But I like being able to move and have my laptop, 'cause I like bringing it with me places. I love that freedom feeling with it.
Now when I go to Florida in January, I'm going to be laptop-less. And you know what? It's going to really fucking suck. 'Cause, that was going to give me something to do, and helllllllo, music! I need music!!!
I do have an iPod. But it's three years almost four years old, and the battery absolutely sucks. It'll last for 2 minutes, if that, without it being on the charger. And I've never replaced it, because of course, everything has to cost a shitload of money on this earth. I hate it. I think it's $80 to replace the battery for that. I'm better off burning cd's and purchasing a ghetto c.d. player. aha, even though I hate those.

Annnnnyways, back to my horrendous laptop. Now, you see, I was okay with the broken hinge, I was going to use it even if it was broken, because it was still useable. But then my battery charger started fucking with me, it started un charging for no reason, even while the cord was plugged in. Something to do with the inside of the laptop, there was wires showing and shit from the hinge being broken, so I'm positive that's why that started fucking up. And I was also okay with that, but as days went by, it only got extremely worse.
And early lastnight is when it decided to stop charging, completely. So, my laptop could be used. Except it's dead. That's the only problem that I'm concerned about, and not even my moms laptop charger cord will work in it. It worked two times, then that suddenly stopped working as well.
Why is shit built so damn shitty? I am so pissed over this. It seems everything I've ever purchased from Best Buy, always, always, always, always, falls apart. Everything.
Not even lying. Is this happening to anyone else? 'Cause it seems like this shit is always, constantly happening to myself and my family. Ridiculous bullshit.

So, now I've got to spend my savings (that I was saving for a car, some day) on a new computer. When lately, all along, I was planning on investing in a new, advanced camera. And now I'm pretty sure I wont even be able to afford it. I am so fuckign annoyed.
And I'm sure I'm annoying who ever will be reading this. I'm just venting and sharing how fucked up electronics are. I can't live without a computer though, I know. That's sad. But it's eveeerything.
99% of me needing a computer anyways, is because that 99% is for my education. I'm going to be a retarded adult (excuse me, I hate using that word) the rest of my life, because I can't even finish my education myself.......... if you knew my situation, you'd know what I mean. My education is in my hands now, unfortunatley.

Okay, I'm just rambling now. Really pointless, as you can tell. I just needed to vent.
Right now I'm on my mom's obnoxious laptop. But I'm atleast thankful she has one, 'cause I always go on her's whenever mine was a pile of shit.

I wanted to type about more random bullshit. But I guess I'll just end this post now. ahah. I'm sure no one even read this. Oh well. Bye. Have a nice day??

P.S. I have no spell check. Soooooooooooo, look at all my typo's?