Happy New Year!

Wow, can't believe it's actually 2010 - already. So crazy. You think time will hold off, and things will be frozen, but time just goes and goes. Right past your eyes and sometimes you don't even get a chance to look. Ah. Well. I guess that's how I feel anyways..

I think New Years Eve is so overrated. Haha, I was doing some drunken ranting talking about it. But it really is. People feel it's absolutely necessary to get wasted and party on the night of it. It really isn't necessary, at all. Yaaa need to get over it. I am. haha. I was extremely content, just chilling, drinking some Smirnoff. I hardly ever drink. So you can only imagine how easily I get drunk or buzzed. It was quite funny. I was on my last one, and had a little episode of sickness. I had to lye down, I did that for like 20 minutes probably. And was convinced I would be throwing up. So I stumbled out to get 'THE bucket', I started rubbing my stomach. But that wasn't working. So then I started thinking about some stuff, and that took my mind off of the nauseousness. Then I got up and was all better. Haha, next time I need to eat. I didn't eat the entire day so I'm guessing that's all it was..
That's basically all I really did. Oh, I was even feeling so buzzed, drunk, whatever you wanna call it - that I almost made some plans with friends from the passsst. Almost. We had some good conversations going on too. But I just wasn't up to it. aha. Guess isolation will do that to ya. Kidding. Well, actually no I'm not. But, also it's more complex than that. Haven't even seen them in two years.. and we've both changed drastically. So. Yeah.
Oh. My mom and step dad finally got back from dinner, and she knew I was drinking, so I was talking to her and asked her to come lye down with me. Then we watched the movie 'The Blind Side'. It was really good, we both really liked it. I was expecting it to be more dramatic though, you know, something like an instant classic. But no, it was still really good. Based on a true story too :) That's what made me even happier, in the ending.

So, that was my new years eve. Well, there's a lot of other things unmentioned, but that's completely unnecessary and not worth typing it all.

Haha Michael Cera is so cute and hilarious. looove him. His little promotion commercial for his new movie 'Youth in Revolt' or whatever, is funny (on Adult Swim).
Random.


Oh, I have some New Years resolutions but, I feel this post is already too long. And I have to go change the channel, the show on the television is so fucking obnoxious right now!!! AH

Follllllllllllow Kaelah :)

So, just wanna let you all know, you need to follow this girl immediately. She's a fashion genius, and absolutely great :)

Counting down :)

Wow, I can't believe Christmas is only SIX days away!!! Where the hell does the time go?? I have no idea. It seems like it was just summer, time is going too quickly. I remember when I was a kid I used to get so excited for Christmas, the month always seemed too long, I'd have Christmas countdowns, take naps by the Christmas tree, and peek at the wrapped presents. haha. But now. I feel like I'm not excited. And that's not good. Because, I made a promise to myself that I wouldn't act like my parents.. that I would still get excited on holidays and birthdays. But now, I feel like I'm turning into them. That IS NOT GOOD!

Anyways, I got a new camera last night!!! Finaaallllllly! Half was my money that I had left over, and half was Christmas money from my mom and step dad.. It's a:

Canon EOS Digital Rebel XS

Whoa. Sorry the font came out like that. Lmao. I had copied & pasted it. So whatever. But yeah, it's pretty amazing. People are trying to say Nikon's are better and Canon's are only known for their name, and that's why people buy them. But I completely disagree with that. I definitely recommend this camera. It's perfect quality. It's just what I needed and what I've been looking for. I am so incredibly happy! I can now finally enjoy taking photographs and share them without feeling ashamed :)

Veganism.

Alright. Sorry I haven't posted in awhile. I'm half way out of my depression fog. But at least I'm making progress. Right?

It snowed for the first time on the 5th. Snow is still outside. It's so beautiful.. I painted my nails Christmas colors, I do it every year. But I'm kinda pissed 'cause they're already starting to get messed up. They're dry and all. But you know how like 2 hours later if you bump or nail into something it'll leave a massive gash and make it gushy? Yeah..

Annnnyways.
I've become vegan. For so many different reasons. And I'm sticking to it too. I became a vegetarian at the end of January in 2007. My intentions, at first, were to become vegan. But I couldn't manage that. Sooo now, almost two years later, I've finally become one. I feel like it's been 3 years? Like I'm miscounting by one year. But I don't know. Not thinking clearly.

I think I started the 3rd of this month. Just wanna document this so I remember the exact date this time. aha. And I'm doing really good. I know I wont end up going back to eating dairy products or using any products associated with the cruel usage of animals.. My mind is set.
Obviously Peta is what opened my eyes to everything. I've known about Peta for a long time now. But never did I actually comprehend the cruel things going on with animals, other than them being slaughtered for someone's stomach to be filled temporarily. Anyways, I was reading a Peta2 vegan recipe booklet and I was reading all these sad, sad, sad, cruel stories about these innocent animals. And I must have been extra emotional, because while I was reading it I was hysterically crying - for an hour. haha. But honestly. This world is just so fucked up. I'm sure you're very aware of that.

It's sad not many people know about the violent, cruel things going on in this world.. not even my family knows, nor will they listen when I try to explain it to them. They're completely stubborn and want to believe what they want to believe in their cannibal minds. :|

If I do have a future. I already know I want to rescue as many animals as possible. Farm animals included. Any animal that needs a home. That's something I really, really want to do in life. I know I wont be able to do that for a very long time. But I want to give my life meaning, and be able to save lives and give animals comfort and happiness. I've always been an animal lover. aha
I'm so corny. But I'm being completely honest right now.

And if I have a family of my own. I'm totally raising vegan children. It's absolutely safe for infants to be vegan and grow up still being vegan. I've done plenty of research. It's actually a lot healthier for babies to grow up that way, a lot healthier than giving your child a pile of fatty, toxic meat and a cup full of toxic, milk pus. Seriously... And the things people do to acheive that glass of milk, and that slice of cheese on your sandwich. It's the most fucking disturbing thing. In many, many ways.

I just wish, that people could take the time out of their 'oh so' busy day, and actually look into this. Look into what you're putting into your system, into your child's system. I am just beyond terrified and disgusted about it all. And that I didn't know about it sooner.

I hope that someone actually reads this all. And what I hope the most is that you learn more about this and one day hopefully you decide to live healthy and cruelty free.

That's all.. :)